*Monologue conversations between myself* ..::.. This feelings again ..::..

*Monologue conversations between myself*

Everytime i feel this kind of feelings, i hate it soo much !
Yerp, i hate it very very much !!


Plz Shaira dear, set ur focus on ur target
Plz, set ur focus


I do know how much i miss my degree's life
Melbourne, RMIT and such


Hey dear, that was way back ago!
Come back to the present. Present ! No more past ! dear !


Why is it so hard for me to cope and settle down with Sydney?
Why?! Why?! Why?!
I never reacted this kind of way towards new environment
I thought I am flexible enough
Yes - Indeed I AM !


Past is good for you to track what's your experiences are
But plz Shaira, never ever take it too personal
Don't think about it too much
But why and how come you so much hate this feelings ?


Its just that I dont know - WHY ?
Everyday I try to figure out the real facts
But I discovered NON !
I am getting less and less motivated each day
Shoot ! That's very bad aiye
I know


Yes dear, that is very bad
Don't kill your thinking too much
You have a lot of other things to do
Studies, Work and even your life !
Plz move on, don't live by the past dear


Yerp, I am trying and still coping
Everyday I always pray to Him
Because I know, He won't give this kind of obstacles
UNLESS you are capable with it rite
I always pray for the courage and strength to face the reality


That's excellent
You will get better with time
Do enjoy the moment that you used to have
If you ever did it before, replicate the same thing
Just set your mind
You aren't in Melbourne any more
You are living in a new environment now
You, yourself know
(its pretty sad if you don't know as a lot of ppl does)
You have a lot of strengths and courages
Don't look down on yourself
So now, be on track and focus


Yes, Insya Allah
I will focus and be on track
One question :
Am I capable to be like what I used to be ?


Remember what you used to learn at Maxis : 7 Habits
Begin with the end of mind
Be Proactive
Put First Things First
Think Win/Win
Seek First to Understand, Then to be Understood
Synergize
Sharpen the Saw



I will try to replicate my succeSS at Melbourne like what I used to
Insya Allah, Amin



*Insya Allah, I will gain another flying colors for my Masters*


Some of the thoughts 'quoted' by friends


Terpisah kerana mengejar cita & impian. Moga Dirahmati Allah.Insya Allah

When I fall in love, I take my time, There is no need to hurry to make up my mind
But when I am frustrated, Definitely it will take time for me to heal,
Yet to understand the real...

Politic feverr !~ *Wat about me ?*

Wah. it seems dat Msia's having her politic fevers n0w. After d announcement, d heat wave well travelled across d country. Yet i am here, just an observer. but i do get some updates from friends, acquaitances, and fellow juniors.. some of dm (d juniors) even bombarded me with questions and d conversations go like this...( through YM )

1)Junior : Akak, hows life. tak mengundi ke ?
Answer : aik ngundi ape lak..
Junior : Ala, Umno Umno tu..
Answer : ala dik oi, akak pn kat sini, bab2 politik kurang sket. bkn tak de assertiveness tp ntah laa.. hanya mampu mendoakan yg terbaik utk negara terchenta.... cewahh
Junior : Ye ke kak, bkn dulu akak aktif juga ke mase kat melbourne dgn Umno umno ni..
Answer : hurmm. actually YES, but sumthing came up and apparently that is not my priority. sumthing happened sbb ada orang jealous, ada cubaan nk menjatuhkan etc.... what can i say.. during that year 2006, i am more happy with MSA (msia stud assc kat Uni), AIESEC, SLP, Golden Key, MASCA, NBA, SLP, SSCC, RAIS, RMIT Union, Comm Games and etc.. * amik ko.. byk list. if tak paham, search kat google hahahah.. i am happy with what i am now... ada la tercalar, terguris sikit masa tu. hi3...
Junior : ooooo gitu ke kak.. ada org sakitkan hati akak la ni. sebab tu tawar hati ekk.. hehe.. lek aa kak. akak kan tabah..dorang jeles lbh tu mesti time tu akak pun aktif dan fames jugak kat uni kan... byk awards akak dpt kat Uni kan. so akak byk involve aktiviti luar la ni.. bodos la dorang ni buat kakak saya mcm ni. haha
Answer: huhuhu.. yes dear ! that's correct ! padan pn.. hi3

*Raya nite 2006, d last time EVER i went to msian hall for raya*

2)Junior : Akak, tak nk join politik ke? dulu time kat skola akak kan aktif giler . tak reti duk diam pulak tu. ada je menda2 yang akak akan involve.. kagum. macam mana la akak organise masa.
Answer : amboi. ayat tak agak2. akak tak giler k !...politik ? hishh nk jugak tp masa nya belum lagi...muka mcm akak ni layak ke politik ? i dont think so la dear
Junior : Bukan pe teringat masa dkt mersing, dua tahun akak kat sane, dua tahun la akak pegang top positions. even majoriti committee lain turun, akak tetap maintain. caya la kak. pengaruh kuat ni. smpi dpt award Anugerah Kepimpinan Perempuan dkt maktab dulu..
Answer : hahaha tu dulu la dik oi.. skrg akak dh expired sket.. jd macam lembab. tgk la macam mana... blk msia march thn lps, akak baru nk daftar utk mengundi thn tahun hahahah. camane nk join2 politik ni.. kui3..
Junior : ala, lek a kak. slow slow. akak punya network kan byk..
Answer : ntah la dik oi. skrg ni kalo ley akak nk menyendiri. Mind own business je.. haha..

*Raya day 2006, d last time EVER i went to msian hall for raya*

3)Junior : Rugi kak, akak byk potensi tau. kitaorg kat sini selalu je dengar pasal akak. dah lama abis skolah pn orang sebut-sebut.fames la katakan
Answer : ala dik oi. rugi ape nya. tak de pn . biasa2 je.... hu3.. ouh sebut2.. ngumpat la tu kot. mcm blh caye je.. susah gak sbb org ikuti ape yg kita buat dari time skola smpii la sekarang.. mcm paparazzi pulak..
Junior : Hahaha. tak de la kak. kitaorg suka dgr stori akak. biasa la kadang-kadang orang jeles mcm2 dorang ckp la kak. tp akak tgk la. ramai je junior maktab add akak kat facebook tu. akak memang fames la
Answer : adoyai.. tak abis2. dh aa tuka topik. btw thanks for d info. nnt akak consider ekk.. kui3..

Thinking of this , reminds me of two things

*Thinking mode* (way back 2004)

1) I had a private conversation (Face to Face) with my Aunt, Mak Normah. I think it happened few weeks after my grandma passed away. when we had our kenduri at my Aunt's house (M Dik). D conversation goes like this : ( its not d exact word but conveying d same meaning )
Mak Normah : nnt kat Sydney what are you taking ?
Answer : 0Uh. masters of commerce. specialising International business
Mak Normah : tak amik engineering dh ye.. why dont u take another field like law ke politic field ke ape
Answer : (guttered!) . erkk law ? hish.. tibe2 je law... jauh menyimpang tu. nnt mama bising lagik . amik business pn dh kena tanye, nape tak countinue telco engineering. hahahah. Shaira nk amik law pun, it doesnt tally with me kot i think..
Mak Normah : ye la. because what, u love to talk. u love to argue. mmg padan sgt la dgn your personality.. isn't right..
Answer : erk.. ada gak pk cm tu. tapi never thought of doing it smpi dpt masters.. (chuckle a lil bit) .. tp nnt mase wat masters mmg ad plan nk amik satu dua subject related to law kot mcm Biz Law in Global Economy ke cane. see how...

Afterwards i changed d topic......

2) M Dik ke sape ntah did ask me about joining Puteri UMNO . ya la at my age kan just nice to get involved with this kind of thingy. but later on, Uncle Haron ( M Dik's hubby ) pun menyampuk, tak pe later2 if dia nk masuk senang jer.. wah wah. simply je.. i bet its gonna be fun. BUT this is not d time yet !

Enjoy !! Life my live to d fullest babeh !~

Sydney vs Me

Sometimes how i wish i'm @ Melbourne. wit my comfort zones around, i know what i wanna do, i know what place to go, i know which frens to choose, i know which work mates that i can tag along and d list go on....

Yet, WAKE UP shaira. WAKE UP shaira... u are in Sydney rite now.. i know i have to start all ovaaa again.. arghh.. adaptable, flexible. yeah its all in me BUT its just dat i hate to do it again and again.. lolzz


Hell yeah. i know ~.. i am coping and adapting wit Sydney. *STILL* .

for this writing, i wanted to talk MORE on my Job Hunting sessions & my UNI - The University of New South Wales...

Nnow lets talk about my Job Hunting...

Job hunting is aiinntttt easy @ Sydney compared to Melbourne. This is very true ! loads of my mates reckon dat finding job @ sydney is veryyy hard. BUT the pay rate is good

Vice versa with melbourne. freaking easy to find job but the pay rate is above average WHICH is still good ! but not to worry i secured myself few interviews BUT why do i still COMPLAINT ?
Well, Shaira being Shaira, always complaining about this and that. this is not good laaa. that is not good la.. am i too fussy or what ??? *thinking*

so the situation now , i am in d midst of doing my 3rd stage of my final interview for a role dat is willing to pay me about $28 per hour ! yerp dis is freaking awesome.

But wat i hate so much is the process , its too long. its been on for a WEEK. yerp a week !

I know i can get d job but i have to wait UNTIL d time's come.. pity me !!

Very contradict to Melbourne, i only need a WEEK to submit my CV or Resume to all d jobs i applied and *TADAAA*.. by next week, i was bombarded wit heaps of phone calls !. Veryyy different wit Sydney.

Well , maybe because :

1) Economic crisis : the jobs opening went down a lil bit
2) myself : am i not good as i used to be ( erkk i think dis is not d case.. haha )
3) Sydney itself : arghh . i dont know....

Lets pray for my final interview NEXT WEEK to be a good one..

ouh guess what , while drafting this blog, received 2 calls from recruitment agency.
Yeay next week i got an interview with Hallis Recruitment on Monday morning @ 9 am and Hudson recruitment on Tuesday @ 2 pm ( shoot ! i need to quickly get a bus from UNSW to d CT centre) ... ouh mine.. i can work EVERYDAY during biz hours EXCEPT Tuesday ! how i wish i got all evening classes.. hehe

I hate for not doing anything apart of studying . Life is soo boring..

What you reckon ? traveling around ? D'ouh, ive been around Sydney couple of times ! What else should i go ? Yerp climbing the Sydney Harbour Bridge is an EXCELLENT idea. That's in my wish list over the next 3-4 months perhaps after my Europe Trip.. ^___^

Yeah. Europe trip babeh, i need and desperately need to WORK man !. $ $ $. i am trying NOT to use my previous savings . the reason is just simple BECAUSE i am too lazy to get it out from my Fixed Term Deposit.. too lazy. i just wanted to grow the $ more and more...

Bet some ppl will say, what d heck is going on here. whats d point of ME saving $ more and more without using it... well i have this kind of different views..

1) for traveling : i will try to use my 'current' $ dat i earn from work.. i will try not to use my scholarship $ @ all.. wats left in d bank @ d moment is all my savings from my WORK late 2004 - mar 08 including my tax returns.. i KNOW its not DAT much after some opss not some but a lot of expenses DEDUCTION during my degree year.. ( trips to all ovaaa Aussie - NSW, South Australia, VIC, QSLD -Gold Coast, Cairns, Great Barrier Reef etc etc etc, TAS & NZ both North and South Island) .. i nevaa use a penny of my scholarship for all d trips... well knowing dat I LURRVEEE to travel, i need to find extra options to earn my own $$..

Scholarship was meant for my studies and day-to-day living.... ( am i a good gurl ? )

2) apart of traveling : ahaaa.. i always dreamt of having a NICE SHINing SPORTY car that suites a girl like me... why sporty car ? i dont know. its not that i want a 2-seater car, or not only for my own use. but i dont know . i just lurrrvee sporty car.. someday i hope i will get my own .. Imagine at my age, i dont have my own car. what a shame aiye.... i will keep on saving to get my dreams come true ( hopefully, i can live longer. Insya Allah ) .. plus it wont make sense if i got a Sporty car as my 1st car!




3) anything else : of course la duh.. everyone wants to save for their so-called grand preparing rite.. but it's okay. i still have a loooooooongggggg way and looooooooonggggggggg journey to go. so i can still enjoy. hahaha.. about age ? nah, when d rite time and rite guy comes to u, it will happen....

UNSW - my dream uni for Postgrad ??

No0ooppe.. not @ all..... as i am doing something different for my postgrad studies (Master of Commerce specialising in International Business) compared to my Telco Engineering degree, Uni of Sydney was my first choice !!

Actually . i wanted to do MBA. Only my former uni RMIT do allow graduates with no working experience to enroll in MBA. Most of d unis will required at least 2-3 years working experience. Thats when i decided to do International Business.... Apparently, due to some circumstances, i diverted my way to Sydney rather than Melbourne, hence i made Uni of Sydney as my 1st priority..

IDP submitted my application quite late and i decided NOT TO USE any agent as my middle-man. i did everything by my own... from liaising with the Uni, School .. everything !!!..
*serves u right IDP.dont think of getting commissions for my admission*

* the gurl who loves to complain and prefers to do everything almost perfect * ha3

What i dont like about UNSW

1) Printing credits : No allowance for us !!.. for my biz school, i had to pay $0.135 per A4 page. damn expensive. i still remember RMIT to give us allowance of $25 for 1 semester ( undergrad ) and yet i can still do my printing when i visited RMIT last feb ( even i graduated Dec 2007 ). a lot of the subjects HERE required us to do printing..

2) HUGE campus !!! too many stairs.. but in a way i can exercise..

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